The alchemic reactions of your bullshit is quite idiotic....

So I no longer know what to do with myself. In december, these guys robbed my cousins house while i was there by myself. I was held at gun point, and i have been mortified since. And that's only on top of everything else, im paranoid, cant sleep, have nightmares... everythings a mess. i went to go see the school guidance counselor twice and she reccomended counseling outside of school. of course my dad said no so of course i stil haven't gotten any better. ive literally broken down and started crying for absolutely no reason several times at random. i have no idea what to do with myself. i want to die. i want to be happy. i want to be relieved of all this stress. im not getting anywhere. Dammit its like my parents arent even caring i tried talking to them and im done with everyones shit! i almost fucking ran away over nothing. and this is only half of it i swear im fucking crazy. can anyone help me?